February 2012
32 posts
“The human heart is made from the only substance in the universe that can become...”
– I Wrote This For You: The Billions Of Pieces
“I promised a lot.
But never that I wouldn’t get back up after you knocked me...”
– I Wrote This For You: The Sun Will Freeze Before I Do
“Sometimes the only way is jumping, I hope you’re not afraid of heights.”
– Gavin DeGraw, Meaning
My asshole teacher trying to call me out in class:
Teacher: make sure you all bring your monster and cheezits to eat in my class, everyone.
Me: its a REDBULL, thank you very much.
On a happier note, I got to see my bestfranns...
They make me so mad. You don’t even know who I am. You have no idea what I’ve been through. Don’t tell me you were there for me, cause you weren’t.
You weren’t there when I got to see some drug addict beat the shit out of my mom every night. Or when the doctors told me my little sister probably wasn’t going to wake up from her coma. Or how about when I was...
“I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone...”
– Oscar Wilder
Her: yeah, I miss him, but I'm just having fun. I want to go out and experience other people, ya know?
Me: yeah, I know what you mean. Just be careful. Because at first it's all fun and games, but then after a while, you realize you can't stop. And you'll get sick of it. Because you'll want to find someone who actually cares about you, and you won't be able to. And eventually you'll turn out to be an angry, bitter, paranoid person. And trust me, you don't want that. You don't want to turn out like me.
I fall for it every time. I’m so naive. I actually begin to believe all the bullshit they tell me. How special I am, how much I mean to them. When really it’s just a lie. They say whatever they have to to keep me happy enough to stay. But they don’t really mean any of it. I’m not one in a million. I’m 110 percent replaceable. I always have been. In their eyes,...
I would have liked to have thought that I was the teeniest special. Just a little bit. Even like, one percent. But no. Go ahead. Fuck her. Do whatever you want. I’m so over hoping that people actually care about me. Because no matter what they say, they DON’T.
January 2012
73 posts
I AM SO SICK OF BEING USED.
End of story. I just don’t have the energy anymore. I keep giving myself away, and I never get anything back in return. I feel like I’m slowly running out of myself, and eventually I’m just going to disappear.
“And now I’m looking at you,” he said, “and you’re asking me if I still want you,...”
– Cassandra Clare
“After a certain point, a heart with so many stress fractures can never be...”
– Jodi Picoult, Salem Falls
“Ask yourself if what you’re doing today is getting you closer to where you want...”
– Unknown
“You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that’s the sad truth. Maybe...”
– T.J. Thyne, Bones
“Only by going too far can one possibly find out how far one can go.”
– Jon Dyer